raise the curtains over this beehive /
here is a magic trick / you have to wait
for time to tell you the secret / but it’s
noisy still / noisy still / noisy still /
so much movement in so little space /
is also a metaphor for my heart
of hearts / there’s another me
with another heart in there /
each iteration more anxious
than the last nervous man /
a nervous system, if you will /
that sprawls its telomeres out like scrolls /
inviting the brush of tomorrow to paint
it all black / black / black / black /
this is an artificial expression /
for an emotion I am not feeling
at this current moment / but I am
half-certain I have experienced
at some point of my life / perhaps
without thinking of it as the basis
of a poem / that’s what it’s become /
categorising scenes into a folder /
pulling out the knife and putting
it back inside again / the wound
getting just a bit bigger / until it can
fit the knife without hurting anymore /
a mold in the chopping block /
I am feeling nothing right now
but exuberance / but like everyone else
I have branded myself / the magic is
that I can change the way I feel
when I want to / but I do it more
often when I don’t / it’s not a good
magic trick but I am quite content /
I think I could live life out like this /
a charade of bunnies in mysterious top hats /
the one picked out will be put out to the pastures /
and the other two will be skinned and baked /
it’s not as sad as I make it sound / everything
dies at some point / why not make a game of it /
why not stare down God at his blackjack table /
why not allow yourself to feel good without
telling yourself you must feel bad / look Him
in the eye/ and bid all the marbles / why not /
why not / why not / why not / why not /
why not do everything in the entire world ever /
the rules are a crapshoot and everything’s magic magic magic

Freewriting Explanation: Every day, Valen shall use 5 minutes to write completely unprompted and uninterrupted, letting the words lead the way. There is no end purpose to each piece, but rather, the pieces are allowed to develop naturally in their own way. The pieces are then uploaded without edits.